Shiloh Visit

April 2nd, 2012 § 0 comments § permalink

I spent last weekend (March 28 – April 1) down near the Shiloh National Military Park and in and around Corinth, Mississippi. I went so that I could see the 150th anniversary battle reenactment for the battle of Shiloh and tour the Military Park itself, hopefully identifying at least where the 53rd Ohio Voluntary Infantry regiment had been camped and where the battle had started for them. I was fortunate enough to have my dad and my brother along with me, to whom I will be eternally grateful for coming along, asking questions, hiking around with me, taking lots of pictures and video, and just generally sharing the experience. It was a great time.

Corinth itself is a cute little town. They have managed to keep their downtown somewhat alive and have quite a few great little shops and restaurants. Everyone we met there was so incredibly nice, truly some of the nicest people I’ve ever met. I wish I lived closer, I would go there all the time.

The Corinth Civil War Interpretive Center is located just outside of town and is a fantastic facility. They had a couple of videos, one about the battle at Shiloh and one about the battle at Corinth (which I hadn’t studied very much). It was great to see some of the re-enactors filtering in through the morning in their uniforms.

I was prepared for the Military Park to be much larger than the image I had in my head, but it still blew me away. The park itself is over 42,000 acres. We were there kind of later in the afternoon, so we spent some time in the visitor’s center and then headed out on the driving tour. The visitor’s center was very nice. They even had a Union uniform I could try on (Dad and Matt both took pictures, I’ll update this post when I get them). We watched a 30-minute film on the battle from 1956, which was interesting, pasted on beards and all.

We didn’t have time for the entire driving tour, but we did stop and hike along the sunken road and then around Shiloh Church so we could find the 53rd OVI’s campsite.

Fence along the sunken roadThe hike along the sunken road was amazing. The trail goes about a half-mile back from the road. At first it’s along a fence line, and then it goes into the woods. I had read that at its deepest the sunken road was only about 18 inches below the surrounding land, and, although the road had leveled out significantly, you could see that it probably afforded the soldiers positioned there only the barest amount of protection. In the wooded areas it was pretty eerie, just imagining what it would have been like to be laying there in a muddy ditch while the Rebel soldiers launched attack after attack. The Union troops there held that position for about 8 hours on the first day of battle, with the Confederate soldiers launching 11 separate attacks before finally surrounding the remaining Union soldiers and taking them prisoner.

It was getting dark by the time we found the 53rd OVI’s campsite. We started out at Shiloh Church and hiked back through the woods, across Rhea’s Creek and then into Rhea’s Field where we found it. This part of the trip was especially overwhelming. I’ve been reading about this battle, and particularly the beginning of the battle for the 53rd, for about three years now. To finally be able to see it, to be able to 53rd OVI Monumentplace where the soldiers had lined up that morning, the directions the Rebel troops had come from, the way many of the men had gone when they broke and ran for Pittsburg Landing – I don’t know that I can describe the feeling just yet. I’ve spent so much time trying to put myself into the shoes of the men that stood there that morning, and being able to stand there in that same spot, it made it all so much more real for me. I could see what they saw and I can now better imagine what it must have been like to watch the Rebels come out of the woods and begin firing from two directions.

On Saturday, we went to one of the two re-enactments that were being held over the weekend. The actual 150th anniversary isn’t until April 6 and 7, but the re-enactments were being held a week early so as not to conflict with the battlefield illumination and other events being held at the Military Park.

We got there early and toured the camps, talking to some of the re-enactors along the way. The re-enactors were great, all of them eager to answer questions. We got to film some of the Union soldiers lining up and beginning their morning drill. We went out along the Confederate battery and saw them drilling with their cannons. It was great.

Union batteryThe actual re-enactment began at around 2 pm. We had good seats, although we were right next to the Union battery, which was much louder than I had imagined. In fact, everything was louder than I had imagined. The cannons near us were so loud that when they fired you could feel the vibrations through your body.

They were set to re-enact portions of the battle for the sunken road, and so almost all of the Union soldiers were lined up behind a makeshift fence. The Confederates marched in, the cannons shot at each other, the soldiers shot at each other, and there were even cavalry forces which rode up on horseback. It was pretty exciting. The Union batteries had some noise-makers they would set off to try and imitate the sound of the shot and shell flying through the air and they had a couple of ground explosives set to go off and throw up dirt to look like shot hitting the ground. One of the coolest things to see were the smoke rings that came out of the cannons and even some of the rifles when they were shot just right.

Union lineI’m so glad that I went to see all of that. The battlefield itself was incredible and the re-enactment is the closest I’m going to get to actually witnessing the battles that I’m writing about. The details I was able to make note of will definitely serve me well as I write.

Paris Review Interviews 2 – Françios Mauriac

March 27th, 2012 § 0 comments § permalink

François Mauriac was a Nobel Prize winning French writer. I had trouble getting a sense of his work from my brief searches online. I gather both from the biographical information I was able to find and from the interview itself that he was a devout Catholic and struggled with the challenge of writing fiction that represented his beliefs. His novels, it seems, while they reflected religious themes, were often dark and dealt with baser themes, which irritated some Catholic readers. In addition to winning the Nobel, he was admitted into the Académie Française and was made a Grand Officer of the Legión d’Honneur.

The interview begins with a quote from another literary magazine: La Table Ronde. The interview is framed as a continuation of the discussion from that magazine. In that quote, he says:

Every novel worthy of the name is like another planet, whether large or small, which has its own laws just as it has its own flora and fauna.

He spends quite a bit of the interview talking about this notion, this idea that there is no “standard” technique, no rules for now novels should be written. It’s all about the expression of the world of the novelist, the expression of his or her perspective, his or her truth.

Many other things are discussed, but I’m going to stay with this point for now. It’s something I’ve been teetering on the edge of dealing with for some time. There is a lot of preoccupation with “finding your voice” in writing circles these days (and has been for some time) and I think “voice,” in a way, is being substituted for perspective. I also think that the only answer to the challenge of finding your voice or your perspective is the ancient Greek maxim: “know thyself.”

In fact, at one point in the interview, Mauriac says as much: “I feel that a writer’s first duty is to be himself, to accept his limitations. The effort of self-expression should affect the manner of expression.” The effort of self-expression should affect the manner of expression. I have to admit, I’m struggling a little to unpack that sentence. “The effort of self-expression,” so the work we do in trying to express our ideas about the world, or the work it takes to do so, the things we feel we must do to get these ideas across. “The manner of expression,” so the method or means or forum or medium of expression.

And this is where I’m going back to the phrase “the effort of self-expression.” I may be thinking about it too concretely. But maybe not. Maybe he isn’t talking about the work we do to get our ideas across to others, but rather to figure out what those ideas are in the first place. The problem with that interpretation, though, is the word “expression.” It implies a projection from the self outward. In fact, you can use the word to mean pressing something out. It is often used that way in medical contexts, but thinking about that is a little gross. So, let’s put it in a more palatable context: cooking. Take a lemon. You can get the juice from it by using a juicer (and gravity) to extract it, or pull it out. You could also squeeze, or express, it. So yes, to self-express is to present your self – your ideas, your passions, your opinions, etc. – to others. So it all comes down to how you perceive the world and how best to portray that perception.

I keep thinking about surrealist artists like Picasso and Dalí. They had ideas about the world that were best expressed, or most naturally expressed, visually, but that did not fit within the confines of realist structures. And so they invented their own styles, rather than trying to confine the expression of their selves to the rules set by the masters that came before them.

Mauriac mentions Proust, Balzac, Faulkner, Kafka, and Hemingway (among others) as writers who “invented a style to express what they wanted to say.” he also lamented the fact that he saw many young writers imitating the styles of these men rather than creating their own. For Mauriac, then, the true calling of art is not imitation, but creation.

I have a first draft!!

March 21st, 2012 § 0 comments § permalink

I managed to finish writing the first draft of my novel yesterday! It’s an ungodly mess, but it’s done. Final word count: 111,457. That translates to about 287 printed pages. It feels good to have it done, I have been very anxious to get into the rewriting/editing process. I know I probably should sit it aside for at least a month to get some distance before I begin, but I know I’m going to have trouble with that. We’ll see.

This is perfect timing, too. I’m headed down to Shiloh next week for the 150th anniversary reenactment. That should be a very interesting trip, I’m looking forward to it. And now that I have a draft, I feel like I know what I need to focus on while I’m down there.

I have been putting off my next entry in the Paris Reviews interviews write-ups, mainly because I knew I was so close to finishing this I poured all my energy into that and neglected everything else. I am going to try and have the next one up later this week.

100,000!!

March 8th, 2012 § 0 comments § permalink

I just hit 100,000 words on my draft! Whew! I will have a new Paris Review Interviews post up next week, for now I’m just feeling elated. That’s a hell of a lot of writing! And it’s all going to have to be re-done, but that’s ok. I’m looking forward to that part. I just have to keep plugging away and finish this draft up. I’ve promised myself that I would have it done before I head down to Shiloh for a research trip at the end of the month, and I still have quite a bit of work to do. Best get to it…

Paris Review Interviews 1 – E.M. Forster

March 2nd, 2012 § 0 comments § permalink

Finding out that E.M. Forster was the first interview was the tipping point in making the decision to go forward with this project. A Room With A View is one of my favorite books, although I came to it rather late. I was prompted by the latest adaptation of the book, which aired on PBS in 2008. The story surprised me as it seems progressive for its time. How many romantic heroes from that time utter lines like, “I want you to have your own thoughts even when I hold you in my arms?” Only George Emerson, I think. And that makes him my favorite.

Reading the interview only made me like Forster more. I wish I could have been there, talking with him, listening to him. Instead I will most likely go out and get the rest of his books and devour them. I am especially anxious to read A Passage to India. It’s kind of a travesty that I haven’t already.

The thing I loved most about this interview is Forster’s attitude towards his own work. I can only hope to one day be as open-minded about my own. When the interviewer challenges him, Forster is willing and even quick to concede the point. In one instance, the interviewer makes the argument that, for him, the affair between Leonard Bast and Helen in Howard’s End seemed too sudden and not entirely convincing. Forster’s first response is, “I think you may be right.” He goes on to explain why he wrote it the way he did, but he doesn’t seem defensive or argumentative about it.

During the interview, Forster gives some good writing advice as well. He advises that writers would do well to begin with an idea of what the major event in the story is to be and then work towards it. He also admitted to using real people as models for fictional characters.

A useful trick is to look back upon such a person with half-closed eyes, fully describing certain characteristics. I am left with about two-thirds of a human being and can get to work.

Throughout the interview, Forster comes across as soft-spoken, modest, intelligent, and the consummate professional. The interview ends with him expressing his regret that he hadn’t written more and noting that he had “always found writing pleasant.”

Reading this interview – and I am sure this will happen with most, if not all, the others – I am left with the sense that I am not as well-read as I would like to be. That’s not to say that I am not well-read, I read like a fiend, but rather that I wish that I had more time and patience to devote to some of the older, more classic texts – Plato, Montaigne, Beckett, etc. Forster cites Jane Austen and Proust as the two authors that have taught him the most. I certainly don’t feel inadequate on Austen, I went through quite the Austen phase in high school, but I have never read a word of Proust. It seems to me that I ought to. I  actually happen to have a copy of Swann’s Way sitting on my shelf. Just waiting.

Up next is François Mauriac, who I am going to have to look up. This is one of the writers I haven’t heard of before. Again with the feelings of inadequacy. I suppose, however, that taking on this project is a way of addressing that, though.

The Paris Review Interviews Project – An Introduction

February 16th, 2012 § 0 comments § permalink

I mentioned in an earlier post that I was thinking about doing something with the Paris Review interviews. The idea had occurred to me earlier that day and it sounded like a good one, but it also sounded like something that would take a lot of time. Time, as it happens, is not something I have in abundance. To be honest, I’m running a bit of a deficit in that department right now. To be completely honest, I like it that way. God forbid I ever run out of project ideas, I might actually get bored (horror of horrors!).

Back to the interviews. I sat with the idea for a few days, trying to talk myself out of it. I have a full-time job, two kids, a husband, a house, a novel-in-progress, relatives, did I mention the kids? I have to time for a project like this. Except, I have learned that if we wait until we “have time” for all the things we want to do, we’ll die never having done them. It’s not a question of whether or not you have time, but rather whether or not you are willing to make the time. It’s all about priorities. So, the question was, did I want to make this project one of my priorities?

Obviously, since I’m writing about it here, I decided that yes, I did. I could go through a litany of justifications for why this would be a great project, but the truth is simply that the idea wouldn’t let me go. No matter what reasoning I threw at it, it would not dislodge. That and I saw that the first interview was with E.M. Forster, who happens to be a favorite of mine. I’ve decided to take that as a sign. “Yes,” it reads, in giant flashing lights, “you should do this.”

What I will be doing here, then, is reading through the interviews in chronological order – because I’m anal like that – and writing a bit about my reactions to each, what I learned, etc. I am going to try and do one interview per week, but I am not making any promises. It doesn’t sound all that ambitious, but, with my schedule, it’s the equivalent of loading up the Conestoga wagon for the trip out to Oregon.

Of course, this project would not have even been thought of without the current editor Lorin Stein making the interviews available online, free for the browsing. For that, Mr. Stein, I thank you whole-heartedly. I’ve been dipping in and out of them for the last couple of years (they went online in October of 2010) and I find that there are several I like to go back and re-read every so often for the inspiration. To make sure that I support the people who made this possible, I did just order a subscription.

I plan to start this project next week with the interview with E.M. Forster from 1953. I don’t know how this will turn out or if it will be interesting to anyone besides myself, but the only way to find out is to try.

Wish me luck!

It’s always been about slavery…

February 6th, 2012 § 0 comments § permalink

I have been reading through Sketches of War History, 1861-1865. It’s actually several volumes consisting of papers read before the Ohio Commandery of the Military Order for the Loyal Legion of the United States (MOLLUS; history here). In the mid-1880′s, men who had served (mostly as officers) in the Civil War were invited to present papers regarding some aspect of their service or some issue relating to the war of which they had particular knowledge. The papers themselves are fascinating and a great resource for first-hand accounts. And I do love my primary sources.

I read a chapter today that was particularly interesting given the discussions about the genesis of the war going on in other environs around the web and the fact that my brother is working on a documentary about the Lost Cause narrative. The chapter is called Love of Country and Foot-Prints of Time and was written by James E. Murdoch, who is listed as a Companion of the Third Class. It turns out he was an actor – a tragedian – who worked as a nurse during the Civil War and as a fundraiser for the Sanitary Commission.

The first portion of his paper looks back to the history of the establishment of the US and the writing and approval of the Constitution. He contrasts a note from Benjamin Franklin with statements from Patrick Henry. Franklin, while he acknowledged that there were parts of the Constitution with which he took issue, pledged to sign the document and speak to no one about his reservations. Henry, on the other hand, was outspoken in his belief that the Constitution should have been worded “We the States” rather than “We the People.

Murdoch quotes Henry as having said:

If you pass it without amendments, it will have the power to emancipate your slaves whenever a majority of the people in the Union raise their voices to decree it. Our Union should be one of states, not of the people of the states. ‘We the people,’ says this constitution; I desire to say ‘the states of North America do will and declare.’ If you make this compact in the voice of ‘We the people,’ the general government becomes clothed with a terrible power; it may declare war, by a majority in Congress, and in that case may arm your negroes, and make them fight its battles, compensating you as it may please.

It is always interesting to look back in history and find the uproar created by a set of words we now take for granted. I think we forget sometimes just how revolutionary these ideas were, and in many ways still are. “We the people” seems like such a simple statement, and yet when you look at the history of it, you realize how much is packed into those three words.

Murdoch writes:

The plain unvarnished tale of the compact of our fathers is this: The thirteen confederate states gave their adopted compact a trial, but fearing the danger of dismemberment from state factions and sectional jealousies, and distrusting the power of separate state governments to defend the common welfare from a common enemy, resolved to unite themselves under one general government, empowered to make treaties, declare war, and coin money, leaving to the several states all other rights not incompatible with the letter and spirit of the constitution, which was to govern all the states and a united people.

There is now, and always has been, a party that keeps alive the idea that we are not a nation, but only a number of states banded together for a general defense, etc., while each state maintains the supreme right to govern itself.

George Washington, and the statesmen of his way of thinking, always spoke of the American people as a nation, under a general government, with full power to protect itself and to compel obedience to the general laws, as the will of the people!

Reading all of this has only opened up more avenues of history that I would love to look into. What exactly happened during the trial of that compact between the thirteen states – prior to the writing of the Constitution – that made people decide that a stronger national government was needed? Were there others who agreed with Patrick Henry (surely there were)? It’s really taking a lot of will power for me to not dive into these questions right away, but I have so much work to do on the novel I’m writing now that I have to be a good girl and just take note of the locations of those rabbit holes so I can come back to them later.

For now, I think this information stands as a pretty good argument for the statement that the issue of states’ rights had been tied to the institution of slavery from its inception as a point of debate.

Finally! Able to blog again…

January 31st, 2012 § 0 comments § permalink

Not that I ever did much blogging in the first place…

A few months ago (right after that last post), I updated one of my plugins and was promptly shut out of my blog. Some php error or other, I never did figure out exactly what was going on. But I did get around to putting two and two together and I just went in through ftp and deleted the plugins. And so I’m back! Hooray! Double hooray because I’ve had lots of thoughts I would love to write about here.

I did participate in NaNo and actually won! I think my final tally was just over 50,000, which is all it needed to be. The novel was not done there, though, and so I’ve kept working. Right now I’m up to about 73,000 words and still going. I’m hoping it doesn’t run too far over 100,000 words, mainly because I would like to be done with this draft so I can move on. I am very eager to get into all the nitty gritty work of rewriting and editing. I think that will actually be my favorite part of this whole process. Well, second favorite part. Research will always occupy the top spot.

The most interesting thing I’ve learned through all of this is how to keep going. I’ve reworked major plot points, changed characters’ names, and even changed part of the structure and, because I am trying to charge through a first draft, I haven’t allowed myself to go back fix anything. And so the first third has a different structure from the rest, characters’ names change halfway through, and the events in the beginning of the novel change about halfway through, so that my characters are referring to things that, really, haven’t happened yet because I haven’t written them. But I will. That’s what the second draft is all about. The hard part has been being OK with this and pushing forward, even though what I really want to do is go back and rewrite everything right away, as soon as I change my mind about something. It has become easier, though, and now I think it’s even a bit freeing, if that’s even a word. Instead of being frustrated about having to let all that go, it’s nice now to be able to let it go, to tell myself that it’s OK to fix things later, to keep going now.

I’ve also been knocking around some ideas for new projects (like I have time for new projects). A friend of mine recently showed me how readability.com will send articles to my Kindle. This is the greatest thing since sliced bread. Truly. So I was thinking about some things I would like to transfer to my Kindle and I had the idea that I would like to go back and read all the old Paris Review interviews, since they’re all online now (thank you Lorin Stein!). Then I thought it might be cool to have a separate blog where I just talk about that experience, write a little about what I learn from each one. So we’ll see. Maybe I will.

Getting Ready for NaNo

October 22nd, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

So I’ve decided to try and pound out a draft for NaNoWriMo next month. I’ve tried this before and I always lose steam after the first week or so, but this time I’ve decided to try and prime the pump a little and get myself inspired. Last month I hit a bit of research fatigue – I hit that place where you start hearing the same things over and over again. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing, it just means I’ve hit the point of saturation. It means I’m done with my in depth research. This is actually a good thing. It means I’m ready to move on.

This month, then, the month before NaNoWriMo, I decided to give myself the gift of inspiration. I’ve been going back and reading some of my absolute favorite writers. I wanted to get their voices in my head before I start writing myself. I hear so many interviews with writers who say that they can’t read while they’re writing, that they want the voice that comes out on the page to be their own, not influenced by anyone else. I don’t think that’s possible or even desirable. What makes our voices original is the way we combine the voices we retain from those voices that have inspired us. I just want to make sure that the voices that are the freshest in my head are the ones that I have loved over the years.

Here’s my reading list:

Books I’ve read –

  • Number9Dream by David Mitchell
  • Ragtime by E.L. Doctorow
  • The English Patient by Michael Ondaatje

Books I’m reading –

  • Ehrengard by Isak Dinesen
  • Cloud Atlas by David Mitchell

Books I’d like to read –

  • A Good Man in Africa by William Boyd
  • Prodigal Summer by Barbara Kingsolver
  • Unaccustomed Earth by Jhumpa Lahiri

This is how you do metaphor

August 31st, 2011 § 0 comments § permalink

Buried in the smoke of many rifles his anger was directed not so much against the men whom he knew were rushing toward him as against the swirling battle phantoms which were choking him, stuffing their smoke robes down his parched throat.

Red Badge of Courage, by Stephen Crane

I have not been able to get this sentence out of my head for the last two weeks.